Feeling so horrible today.
I have gotten mixed messages about whether it is OK to call T.
But I felt so awful I called her anyway.
I left 2 messages. And I feel like I'm asking for too much... I asked her if she could just call back and leave me a message telling me I did not break it, and that everything is going to be OK. But she has said in the past that she doesn't want me to make this a habit, that she can't replace the voices of my parents. (Imo, isn't that what she's supposed to do?)
I just feel like I have no where else to turn.
I hate it.
She is a good T, but this not knowing if it's OK... I mean, what else am I supposed to do??

Just feeling like it's never enough today.
I can give and give... and it's never enough.