how do you decipher between the two?
I know in my heart that it is my decision whether I am going to be a "disabled person" or if I choose to be a person... who just happens to have a disability, but for whatever reason, no matter how hard I try, I can not get myself out of the "I am disabled... I am broken... etc" mindset.

I remember when I was growing up, my parents would say "You can do anything anyone else can do, you just may have to do it a little bit differently." I never believed them... so I never tried a lot of things that I wanted so bad to do... I regret that every day. But in my mind, I wasn't going to be able to do it anyway, so what was the point in trying?

I'm sorry for ranting and complaining. I know there are people that are a lot worse off than I am
(my husband likes to say I got the "decaf version" of CP)...