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Originally Posted by jazzy123456
After a month and a half I finally had a session this week. Crazy thing is, my therapist threatened to tell someone of authority about the fact that I cut my stomach...that is, until I told her I wouldn't ever do it again as long as I am her client...I thought therapists were somewhat used to hearing stuff like that; I didn't want her to get worried to that extent, where she would think I am in true danger...I mean, I've hurt myself before, but I always know my limits and I don't cross them...I wonder if she knew EXACTLY how bad the cuts were if she would react...they weren't deep enough to cause serious damage...they were just on the surface of my skin...like if someone cut themselves from shaving...but, she said, it doesn't matter how I did it or how much...all that matters is that I did do it. I thought someone might know about therapists reactions to this. I asked her what other therapists do in this same situation and she said she didn't know. It makes me wonder how many clients shes worked with who have self-injured...thats not my primary concern at all, for being in therapy, but, it makes me wonder. I feel bad for upsetting her.!!!! please don't make me feel too guilty by your responses!
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I have been in therapy for years and MANY therapists react this way. Most out of genuine concern for you. I think that once she gets to know you she may react differently. I once had a therapist who, after she got to know me, would make me promise that I wouldn't cut till my next weekly visit, because she knew that I don't break promises---EVER. And if she had to cancel she would call and talk to me about it. She even got to the point of not admitting me to the hospital for it unless I told her I needed to go. Anyway, my point is I think that will change once she gets to know you. I am not saying that cutting is okay, but I can't shame you for it either because I do it myself. It for me is a way to control the things that are happening, even if its just for a minute, because when my flashbacks and nightmares are winning, I feel like I have no control.

STAY SAFE---