The therapist I speak of wasn't that way till I'd seen her every week for nearly 3 years. Hopefully yours will come sooner. But if it doesn't remember if she does have you hospitalized, not only does she have a moral obligation to keep you safe, but also a ethical and LEGAL obligation. You see it IS actually against the law to harm yourself. You don't usually go to jail for it but you do go to the hospital. If she doesn't tell someone or do something. and you accidentally go to far with it she can be charged criminally. And many are not willing to take that risk. I suspect this is why she had the reaction she did.