Thanks Lynn. Yes this does clarify what you said. Thank you for taking the time to write all this. I am going to print both of them out. Maybe if I read it enough I will believe it...?

I do have an appointment with a new female T on the 25th. She comes highly recommended in the town that I live in. Unfortunally, we don't have groups in our town. I live in a college town therefore people come and go so much that it is so hard to get a group going and keep it going.

When you say group therapy here, do you mean the chats about certain things like Borderline or DBT? I used to go to both of them and need to get back to going. I just don't feel important enough to be in these groups. Let me know if you mean something else that I am not aware of. Thanks again for all the kind words!