I wish I could say something that'd take the pain away that this situation is making you feel. I know how much you wanted Christian to turn his life around and it seemed like he was on the right track. It's such a shame it didn't continue. However I also think that showed that without the influence of these 'friends' he can get have a good life.

But something I also wonder is if you're holding onto guilt about how things are going, because of feeling like his childhood has impacted him? Of course I am not a mother so I won't really know, but I can imagine you feel responsible for helping him and the fact you have no control being so far away makes it very hard for both sides.

I really think someone independent to talk to could be of use. I'm not sure how you feel about that idea, I've never asked you I guess. Maybe someone just to bounce ideas off and give you a chance to express yourself. Normally I know hubby would do this, but as there is a different sort of emotional involvement and he must have his own feelings which make it hard for him to see things from your point as a mother.

I also wish I could help more with this, but I feel a little helpless with this sort of situation and how I am at the moment to be honest. I am here for you though hun, keep talking. xxxx