my life has changed so much since the begining of t some 20 years ago. Now i have a great awesome loving partner and i can give her as much as she gives me. I feel so much better especially in the last 4 years... it has been a long haul.. have more to do.. job.. stuff like that... but to have someone special in your life and know she feels and u feel u r equal after so many horrible abusive relationships to have a loving kind beautiful one says to me i have come a long way baby