I've been seeing the same therapist for quite a few years and have been through quite a lot with him. At first it felt the typical therapist-client roles I've always had with therapists. But then as time progressed things got off track, I feel. I often feel that his mood will work with mine. If I'm happy he's happy. And that some of his responses to things I say are odd. For example I may mention when he "forced" me to do something (like participate in my recovery) in previous years while I wasn't as healthy. And in response he gets offensive and looks rejected. There's also other things, like the intense silence in our sessions sometimes where I feel like he has something to say, but he doesn't say it. He goes from spending everyday with me to spending none, just like that. I always feel like he wants to "protect" me. Not allowing other mental health providers to have access to me, besides my pdoc. There are times I feel like crap and I try to tell him and he continually tries to convince me otherwise. I've asked for specialized Ts and he's begged me to stay.

I feel really uncomfortable with this and I'm not sure if it's "in my head" or a really strong intuition. I do have a tendency to want to protect myself, so it's possible I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill. I just don't want this to get anywhere, where I can't handle it. (Or it's out of my control). Because even though he's helped me a lot, even the best therapists can mess up along the line.

Does anyone have any suggestions for me?