For as long as I can remember the only time I was truly myself was when I was alone. If I was with other people, I would feel myself break up like a poor image on an old cathray tube television. At the same time, I wanted to meet someone and be in a relationship. Then I did. Then I went into a very deep depression. My partner just never understood when I kept saying, "I never feel like myself." I went to therapy to sort of work on being able to be whole while with other people. So I have been in therapy for 3 years now. But it has really helped. I'm starting to feel a bit better around people. Also Al-Anon has helped... just a few thoughts.

Elana