Peaches, sorry I could not reply to your post before now. It has been a very emotional week for me. Very. I did think of you though a lot this week with this whole thing. I do not know who the person was on PC but I think I know. And it made me sad to know that there is so much pain in this world. And it hurts to know that there were no words to help that dear one.

I talked with my T about this on Wed. And he said that a good T does not just leave a client in a way that will hurt them. The T has too much invested in the client's health. It would be like a doctor getting a patient all fixed up only to give them a poisonous cupcake as they were leaving. He told me it should not happen that way in therapy - at all. And he was very mad that a T did that to a client and the result was self termination. He was MAD.

You know what you have with your T. You know it is "for real" even when fear makes you doubt. Let yourself hold onto that. You do deserve that.