Hey, i know it may feel like ur the only one going through this but keep in mind that ur not alone, everyone here understands the pain ur going through. I am wondering if u got a therapist or a psychologist? Are u under the care of a dr? Is there someone u trust u can go to? For example a priest, friend etc? If you need to talk to someone u can allways email me at black_dragon211187@hotmail.com or PM me here. I have been self inflicted for 6 years now. I know the feeling of being alone and no one understanding. I hope u find alot of support here.