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Old Oct 23, 2010, 04:33 AM
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For as long as I can remember the only time I was truly myself was when I was alone. If I was with other people, I would feel myself break up like a poor image on an old cathray tube television. At the same time, I wanted to meet someone and be in a relationship. Then I did. Then I went into a very deep depression. My partner just never understood when I kept saying, "I never feel like myself." I went to therapy to sort of work on being able to be whole while with other people. So I have been in therapy for 3 years now. But it has really helped. I'm starting to feel a bit better around people. Also Al-Anon has helped... just a few thoughts.

Elana
yeah the push pull of staying alone/reaching out to others is a constant tidal struggle.
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He said that we can email as MUCH as we want (100 times per day). Believe in this - it is challenging fears about being punished. It is okay to be seen. You are not a nuisance. "Too much" simply means exploration, not punishment/withdrawal. Trust in him.

Not looking at him is about keeping aspects of self hidden/secret. We know that is not the healthy choice. Keep working on this - you will get there.

Accept there are parts. Be kind and gentle with them. Working with parts and feelings is the key to happiness. We have been happy before when listened to them and accepted them and were open to feelings. Write in your journal - it is safe to do so.
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