Definitely triggering so be warrned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JustAPixie, maybe it's not so black and white (although I respect your opinion).

I am a natural cynic although I love supernatural, horror, fantasy or Sci Fi.

TRIGGERING - I had an horrofic upbrining due to an alcoholic Father and then after he died from his alcoholism an alcoholic Stepfather and Mum went crazy because of all her years with them so she really contributed a great deal to my mental illness and I had a lot of bitterness. But she got to Alanon and I got to AA and further on we got our act together as mum and daughter for the first time ever - still with spats - but just like all mums and daughters. She died 3 years ago and I had the privledge of laying on a stretcher bed along side her during the final nights, and then she passed.

TRIGGERING - Five months later, having lost my career, house, family and friends and everything else due to mental illness as well as long term mis-prescription, and also the loss of my Mum, I made a 100% attempt on my life and nearly died and was in a coma for 5 days and had many medical interventions to save me, and evidently -I lived!! I don't remember any of this but when I was coming out of the coma, I am told that I turned my head to the head of the bed and said, "Mum's standing there at the head of the bed. And she's saying, Wendy, I'm not ready for you yet". And keep in mind that on my "note" I had sepcifically said I want to go to Mum now.

I am still a sceptic, but on this matter, I DO believe she was there, she was looking over me and she wasn't ready for me to come yet. It makes me cry to tell this story, but it's beautiful.