dear blameme, have you heard of "Desensitization Therapy" , where you face the thing that upsets you, over and over again, until it no longer has that power over you ? the getting upset is actually the current issue, not the reason for it, wouldn't you say ? it's just time to take a second run at this, now that you are stronger. i hope you find a permanent solution to this flashbacks having such power in your life. Gus