Hi everyone!

More time now, thankfully.

IT center = Internet Technology center. Basically its a glorified employment center type dealie with computer acess for everyone.

Anyways, Im about an 8 now. Im still on the drug I was on, but not doing it to get high - back to 1 pill a day(extended release pain med) and sticking with that for my pain. I did come off completely for a few days/week or more, but I literally could not move, get out of bed, or even bathe myself

So the doctor said we have to stick with the pain narcotic, but that he would put me down to pick it up daily. What this means is I am not sick, and not in nearly as much pain(though I almost always have SOME pain, at least now I can self manage)and that I dont have the opportunity to abuse my meds because I only get 1 pill at a time.

This is a very good thng and even though I was offered to take 7 days worth at a time, I declined because I knew I would just end up blowing through them in a day, and then Id be useless for a week. No fun.

Anyways, this means i have been up and around, lost another 10 pounds because i can actually get outdoors and WALK and EXCERSIZE! Which (and i despise activity for the most part)is amazingly feeling REALLY good now that Im doing it every day. I feel pretty good and my belly is shrinking.I almost have a waist again. So far, I've lost over 50 pounds in just over two years. Not bad!

So that covers that, what else..

Oh, my aunt brought me two garbage bags full of used-but-new-to-me clothing..and its all really stylish and nice. I was quite a fashionista before I lost my job and became too poor for new clothes, so this was incredible for me. And I have been getting up early, doing my face up and hair, and putting on nice clothes, and i feel terrific when I do this. Such a small thing makes such a big difference.

I stopped my antidepressant they started me on, and I am better for it. They put me on Celexa and it made me very suicidal. And All I could do was sleep. So ixnay on that. Doc says if i dont think I need it I am likely better off NOT taking one, since I get mania it could be triggering that too. I feel pretty good without it, better to be honest with you. Less depressed when i am on no antidep than on.. strange but true!

All I am taking now is my pain pill, heart pill, seroquel and lyrica. Thats a big improvement for me.

Unfortunately, I contracted Hep C. I am in acute stage which means it was recent. They think my frequent nausea and vomiting is attestable to that, so every so often i go to our little hospital and they give me propylparazine i think its called.(stematil)IT works. Sadly i throw up daily though upon waking. If it wasnt impossible id think I were pregnant lol. However, I havent..erm, done anything to make that happen, if you catch my drift.

Anyways, thats a better update I guess. If anyone wishes to speak with me over the phone or anything, you can send your TPH Num to me in my email and I will call you and have a chat - mandie.m@gmail.com

Love and miss you all and hope to have net soon!