Leora, one thing you have to understand about this site is that every member is at a different stage of dealing with their illnesses. Some of us are just starting this journey and others are finishing it up. Because dealing with problems like ours sometimes takes a lot out of us, often times we find ourselves not being able to support others very much. Other times things are great and we are able to hold up another member when needed. It's give and take here. You give what you can, when you can, and take what you need to get through the day. If you're down and can't help out right now, that's ok. Someone else can. And someday when that person can't help out, you will be able to. That's how it works around here. You haven't ruined anything. If anything, you being here makes it better. The more the merrier in my book. Take care.

Ry