So today I get out at 2, wait in the lobby, no van, rest of the group gets out at 3, so now, once again, I am waiting with them for the van.

Then one of the program directors from upstairs passes through the lobby and sees me and says "oh, your waiting for the van? Because Maria wants to see you upstairs, she was looking for you!"

So I go upstairs, worried about missing the van. (Just to clarify the story, I'll say now that I did NOT miss the van, they showed up and waited for me, which made everyone else late).

So I go upstairs. This is the other program I am in... not the therapy of the partial hospital, this is the program taking care of my other needs... bills, food shopping, etc. They took me to legal services last week and I had everything sorted out with them. Now they've been pushing me to make a doctor appointment, we want to rule out if my "sleeping too much" thing might be related to something physical rather than my depression. So I've been trying to get an appt with my primary physician, and the program people keep asking me.

But that's not what they wanted to talk about today.

They wanted to ask how I made out at legal services last week, and I said fine. But now the program people are worried about me being able to pay my bills. They want to take me to legal services AGAIN and talk to them about selling my house. This is very stressful. It may be something I have to do. But I didn't need the shock of this thrown in my face, and we don't even KNOW if it will be necessary yet!

So she wants to take me BACK to legal services on Wednesday (2 days from now). I told them of the progress I made cleaning up my rooms, sorting my mail (see my other thread here about I finally sorted my mail). This is 6 to 9 months worth of mail that I haven't been able to deal with. Now that it is sorted I can begin to open things and figure out my bank balances and stuff.

But NOW she wants to know if I can do all of that by WEDNESDAY!!!! I told her NO WAY!!! It took me this long just to sort it! And they want to send someone to the house to help me do it, but I said that won't help, because even with assistance, there is no way I can sit down for 8 hours straight and open ALL of this mail and figure out what it all means. This will have to be done a piece at a time... I can maybe do my bank statements in one day, enter some of my utilities bills another day, etc.

So I ask about the possibility of going to legal services NEXT week instead. POSSIBLY if I set my mind to it (and having a deadline will help) I can work over the weekend and the rest of this week and get it all done.

It turns out the reason for all of this rush is that my time in this program ends on Nov 30 and they want to make sure they have done for me all they can. Which I like, that they are trying to be helpful. But I had no idea there was a 2 month limit to this program (I wish I had known that earlier) and the concern now is that if I DO have to sell my house they want enough time to help me through that.

So we have set up for next Wednesday... because this Wednesday is just out of the question and there is no point of going back to legal services without my paperwork. And I'm reeling about the thought of loosing my house again. But time is now really short.

They have been to my house and seen all of my piled up mail... I tried to tell them how proud I was that that pile of mail is no longer there... it is now all sorted. And they appreciate my reaching that goal but now the priority is to get the whole thing finished. That's rough when you are trying to take things "one step at a time" and are trying to praise yourself for steps 1, 2 and 3 and then suddenly find out that you have to have all steps through number 18 done in three more days.

AND they have a limited schedule for when they can take me to legal services, so now all of a sudden getting an appointment with my doctor is not a priority, because this concern about my housing is. (I still have to do it, but I can't do it on the day we have set up to go to legal.)

Funniest (yea, ha ha) part of this... the person she works with isn't in the office and their schedules don't match. So since I can't go to legal this Wednesday, she has to check to see if the other guy will be available next Wednesday. So she is on the phone with him, their schedules overlap so she is asking if he can change his schedule on that day so that they can both go with me to legal together...

And they are trying to decide on morning or afternoon or something, and he must have asked her what is set up with the Legal Services office, because she turns to me and says "You don't already have an appointment set up with Legal, do you?" !!!!! 5 Minutes ago I had no idea I even had a REASON to see legal again... this was all your idea... and I've been sitting in this chair with YOU for all this time so HOW COULD I ALREADY HAVE AN APPOINTMENT!!!!

Funny thing because I thought I was through with legal services but last night Dionne Warwick and her psychic friends called me and told me to make an appointment with legal for next week anyway.

So I am stressed out and tired. Maybe I should just go make something to eat and try to relax. At least afterward... about 40 minutes in her office... I found that the van had arrived and hadn't left without me, so I was able to get home without a hassle.