lonely, reread your post. here are suggestions that may help. you stated you were negative in thought. that would be counterproductive, imho. when we're in a depressive cycle it is often difficult to see our way out tho. it takes so much mental energy. make a pledge to yourself to not use any negative words and if negative thoughts creep in, start doing something...mop floors, sing out loud, vacumn, etc.
taking long walks may reduce your anxiety over all this or even more strenuous excercise. it helps the brain to send out signals of a sense of well-being. another thing that helps me is to watch america's funniest videos. for a brief time i laugh and that also helps. for real.
lastly patience is needed cause it's often times the only thing we can constructively do. it takes time to get the right mix of meds and time for them to kick in. ya don't want to shoot yourself in your foot.
if you don't feel you can do these things or anything else to help, call your pdoc...he may tweak your meds again or have you go back to the hospital to observe and meet with you. many of us deal with depression and can relate to what you're posting. be kind to yourself. it's a chemical imbalance that's going on. i hope you can feel some results of your efforts real soon.