My T and I have kind of realized that I agree with people to (I hope) keep them liking me. I find myself fearing that if I don't agree with them, then they wont like me anymore.

She catches me doing the same thing in T. She likes it when I don't agree with her because it means that I'm not just agreeing with her. But sometimes I find myself agreeing to be agreeable. She caught me at it last week. She said something and I only partly understood what she was saying, but told her that it sounded good. She then asked me if I understood but I couldn't really say that I did. I think she was somewhat exasperated that I had just agreed with her when I didn't totally understand. I think part of the problem that time was that I understood part of what she was saying, but not all of it.

How do I keep myself with agreeing with someone when I don't agree? If you have read about my school issues, I feel like it has pushed me really back in this. I was working on this before school started. And was getting better at it. But now I feel with all of the criticism I've gotten at school for sharing my opinion, I have regressed in my ability to state what I think.

What do I do? How do I go back? Why am I so afraid? Why can't I even do this in T? Why is my automatic response to agree?