whew! thanx everybody. gonna back off of "freak out" mode! yes, i truly believe there is a great amount of dissociation going on in this ole brain, but true DID? i just don't know. things are "stirring" in here tho and i need to explore this more. the new pdoc is all i have and she is very sweet and concerned, and not ruling out DID at this point. will see her next wednesday.

Luce, i'll check out the DSM-IV. thanks. geesh, i know better than to take these online tests. but most of what i posted were "always" answers, but yes, there was too much of a gap (11 gradients?!) between "never" and "always". thanks again all.

P.S. here's a very good link that does a good job of explaining things... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissoci...ntity_disorder

as i suspected, i still fall in the depersonalization/derealization category, with possible dips into the did area but just not sure to my satisfaction yet. as far as the DES test, it said:

"Tests such as the DES provide a quick method of screening subjects so that the more time-consuming structured clinical interview can be used in the group with high DES scores."

back to the drawing board...