Not selfish to post.. thats what this formum is here for - peole to be able to ask for and get help or support.
I don't think it is fair to yourself or the people that are in relationships for you to pursue them.
My T has told me (and actually believes) that you have to kiss many frogs before you find the right one.
I feel like this will never happen for me and I am totally sick of the frogs

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Take some time out for yourself, find who you are and what you really want - it's a lonely road to travel but full of self fullfillment at the end (or so I am constantly told!).
I wish you all the best for your future x
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