Thanks, Rapunzel. The doctor I am seeing does talk to me, not just prescribes me meds, it's just that I feel like I have nothing new to say. It gets a little better, when I can get some sleep, and then there are times like now (it's after 7 am here, and I'm still just trying to calm myself down enough to even try to get some sleep). Isn't insanity doing (or saying) the same thing and expecting a different result? What do I want him to say/do that he hasn't already done? I know I shouldn't lie and just say I'm better, but I'm afraid of feeling even more alone and paranoid... Besides, English is neither mine nor the doc's native language, and I feel guilty enough making him speak it all the time (ouch, I really hope nobody from my "real world" is part of this site, I'd be found out immediately).
The short days thing doesn't bother me that much. It's strange, sure, a little disorienting, but there are so many things that make me miserable that a little less daylight is hardly noticeable...