something I posted in another thread made me realize that my 2 year "anniversary" of seeing T is coming up. I had to pull out some paperwork to find the exact date of our first meeting: Oct 24, 2008. What a long, bumpy road it's been.

So, I see her on Tues, and I'm thinking about acknowledging the 2 year mark in some way. I know there are other threads here on this topic, but I'm asking again. What have you done, if anything, to celebrate those kinds of milestones with your T? What have you not done, but wished you had?

I don't expect I will get another year with T, and I'd like to let her know in some way that this date is important to me, and that I'm aware of it.

This makes me equal parts happy and sad. My life has changed almost completely in the past 2 years. It is so much better now than I ever thought possible. At the same time, I can't help but wish I could start over with T, not make the same mistakes, have so much T time ahead of me instead of the feeling of time running out that I have now.

I have a hard time expressing my feelings about T to T herself. I don't think she knows how important she is to me, how much I admire and respect her, how I know I'll be thinking about her for the rest of my life.

How do I say that? I don't think I could just SAY it. I'd be too embarrassed and awkward.