hi lynn, again, thought about something that helps me sometimes, while you're ruminating, why not write them a letter but certainly don't mail it!  write down all your frustrations, what you wished you had said, etc. my T has me do this and at first i thought how stupid  but later realized the benefits. after you've written everything you can think of that you want to spew out, reread the letter in case u forgot something, then tear it up!!! you will undoubtedly feel better cause you've had your say albeit without their audience. it really helps me so i hope it will do the same for you. 
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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