Hi, I am a girl who is 15 years old, and I hate myself, I have no talent what so ever, I am not beautiful..I hate my skin, it looks awful! and I have been cursed with facial hair, yes I know how gross, but yes, my mother says "Oh honey! I cant even see it! everyone has that much!", ya right, of course she wont tell me that I have it, I searched for some celebs who might have it and I found the sexy and fabulous Megan Fox, but come on..I dont have such a beautiful face that people wouldn't care about my peach fuzz, why am I cursed with all this hair? why me?

And second, I told a guy I like him and he treated me like crap, he dint do much but he..I wish I could explain the situation here but its too long, all you people need to know is I feel hated and rejected by him, and I cant take that.

I dont think my family loves me, they do but its not unconditional, they love their "name" more than me.

No one likes me, no one loves me, I dont know who I am and what I am, I am lost, I cant concentrate on my studies, I leave my classes and go home instead when I see my pathetic skin in the washroom mirror, I dont know why but these days I am so paranoid about my spellings, I am mixing them all up, this dint happen before, and then I have this mind game..if I rotate my head to the right I will have to rotate it to the left too or else something bad will happen, what in the blue hell is that all about?

I wish I would die and be born in Bridget Bardot's body or something, looks matter, if you're beautiful you have it better, and I am cursed with pathetic skin and unfortunately I am hirsute.. my family says "Come on..you're not, everyone has that much" but then again they are lieing, I hate my face, I like to call myself pork face, and if I was beautiful that guy would not have rejected me and other guys would like me, but no one does, I am just useless, and then my personality is not that interesting either, I suck, I really do.

Here is a note that I posted on my facebook, thats how my day goes usually.

First of all, I am really very sorry for tagging you in this note, its just that I have no one to turn to and I am in such a gloom, I hate myself more than anyone, I am not worth anything, I look awful..and my skin? oh my I hate it more than Martin Bashir! I obsess over how I look all the time, and right now, I am missing my classes and writing this note.

Great eh?

I looked at my face in the washroom mirror and I felt so angry, my skin looked awful, my hair was a mess..I wanted to flee so badly, and I did.
I told my friend "My stomach hurts, could you tell the music teacher I will be back in 15 minutes?" she said "Ya sure! be quick tho!".
But the reason I left was NOT because I had stomach ache, I wanted to go home and groom myself instead, so I went home and applied some blush, straightened my hair once again, applied some lip balm..but I still looked like a hot mess, so I decided to sit at home and listen to "Make me wanna die" by the pretty reckless, I know this note is so shallow and yes hilarious in some ways I suppose, but I need help, and I have no idea what is wrong with me, and all of you have been so kind to me, but I am really not beautiful, pictures can be deceiving , and as a person, I am not that interesting either, I find myself very shallow, insecure, lazy, immature and depressing, which is true. And most of my days are exactly just like this, I make an excuse and I flee from school because I am afraid they will say "Diana you look like crap!".

And yes, I love attention, I am so shallow.. I have no idea what the hell my problem is, I want to meet a psychologist, I really do.