Hi there Q-W--
So sorry to hear that you have had some rough times recently. Things will get easier with time and patience. In the meantime, though, my suggestion to you would be to talk to an academic and/or personal counselor about your situation. Maybe they will have some ideas to better deal with the pressure that you are feeling. Hang in there. Good luck.
LOTS of hugs and cheers, Lauren
P.S.-- You can PM me or email me if you need anything