the mother is bugging me about going to visit her for christmas.on the phone we were talking and she said WHEN YOU COME FOR CHRISTMAS.i had a knee jerk reaction and said I AM NOT COMMING FOR CHRISTMAS.the mother shut up for a few seconds like i slaped her and said i guess you really arnt.i was just thare for three weeks of hell.i hate the mother.she was supose to come here for christmas but said i didnt ack like i wanted her here so she isnt comming.now this.i think she knew i would say no and am now soon going to get a nasty letter from her letting me know how awfull i am etc...I hate the mother and now i told her no and i know i am going to suffer a huge fall out do to it .now all i want to do is SI i want to get so drunk and do whatever i dont even care because i so dont want to deal with what is comming up.i work untill 9 tonight and then whatever.i just dont care.my T doesnt care either i'm sure noone does.so if it will help why not i wont even let anyone know.so it wont bother people .i just so dont want to be dealing right now.i'm so angry.