god i am so so angry right now i am lucky i have work as long as i dont have to talk to anyone i will be ok untill after work. my T cant even help me because that would mean i would have to be able to open my stupid mouth and accually use words to tell her what is going on and what i want to do.and that will never happen . all i have left is to SI and calm down.i hate that the mother has this much power over me with just one sentance and the fact that i said no