dp your problems won't go away if you beat yourself up. Doing so may give you some sense of relief TEMPORARILY but the problems will still be there and on top of that you will have the pain (physical and emotional) of treating yourself badly.

What you need to do it GET HELP for these problems, and that may mean getting help for the way you feel first, so that you can see and deal with your problems in a more constructive way.

dp if you are feeling so badly and your parents won't help, please call a crisis hotline and tell them what is going on or call your local ER or mental health facility.