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Originally Posted by Belle1979
Do you hold on to it so that if it did happen again.. you wouldn't feel like you have been blown out of the water with surprise?
I know that's why I do not want to trust... don't want the shock of bad things happening again. I would rather think the worst and be surprised by the good. So not healthy  |
Right....it was a shock really. I was unprepared. You don't prepare.
But....we're talking 8 - 9 months ago. I have said over and over....this is stupid...makes no sense that it's still on my mind. I don't even want to think about any of it even one more second.
But if I lied to you today how would you feel about what I say to you tomorrow?
It takes more self control than I have to will myself to think different thoughts. I play loud music in the car....I'm busy really....I thought maybe making lite of myself might help.