rain i am so miserable right now it hurts i hate the mother and i know she will send me a letter with a bunch of hurtfull things because i told her i wasnt going to go thare for christmas.it isnt good for me to be around her for any length of time and christmas is going to be hard for me because it will be the first christmas without my son who is a marine and in okinowa.i know i will pay for saying no