Hi,

thanks again. Yep, I do feel like I'm barely coping. The thing is, I'm still trying to understand how the system here even works (new country, and I had no time to actually familiarize myself with emergency services). Well, I did find out the # for medical emergencies last night (no 911, separate numbers for different emergencies).
I'll see the doctor on Tuesday, and I'll try to ask him what to do if it feels like I can't stand it anymore. If I can get the words out. You've no idea how much it helps just to know that there's a person somewhere who'll read my desperate rambling.