So I was just accepted into a study abroad program and was super excited about it until realizing that it means that if I go I won't be able to see my t for a long time . I think that I would be able to cope for the most part, but I am very hesitant to go because I just really don't want for something to happen and then to feel like I have nowhere to turn. I'm also worried because it has taken me a really long time to trust T, and now finally we are getting to work on some important stuff. I don't want to sacrifice the trust and the progress we have made by going away for a long time. Just don't know what to do, and T isn't much help because she doesn't want to tell me what to do. She did say that we could see about talking on the phone, but I'm not really sure if that would be helpful or if it would just make me miss her more.