It's hard to say not knowing your condition. I will say though that I have ousted ALL of my friends as a result of my paranoia. I always felt/feel like they don't pay me the right amount of respect or attention as a friend. I always feel like I am a second-rate friend.

I know that alot of it has to do with my paranoia, but I still pushed them away. If I had it to do over again I wouldn't make the same mistake.

Good luck!