Thanks guys. I've slept 11 hours or so at night time, and climed back into bed at lunch time. Also took a drive to the books store and did grocery shopping on Sat. Sunday I went to see my horse, But again slept 2 hours at lunch.
I've been taking Clonazepam to numb myself out and not take things personally.

Today I feel tired, but neutral.

Blue - this weekend I was at the end of my cycle - I'm not sure whare the PMS part is supposed to come into play, but I'm sure it's just before you come on...?

Haven't been able to see pdoc, she's been booked full. And I haven't made much of an effort to set up an app. Seeing a T only helps so much, and on Friday I was hypomanic, so the session was really different - but not bad.
Saturday I was really going through sui ideations. I told my bf I would have been better off in hospital, because I actually don't know where my breaking point is, and if I can stop myself when it happens. Now he goes away Wed-Sun too, so I'm on my own - recipe for disaster. At least I see my T on Friday.
I hat burdening you guys with my volatile moods - i hate being all over the place, I hate being so unproductive... And my appetite has suddenly disappeared, unless i force myself to eat, and then try make sure it is starch. But have lost +- 3 kg in 1 month. Hello; I'm now borderline underweight on the BMI scale and that scares me. And sleeping 11 hours or so a night...