thank you sundog...she ended up rescheduling 3 times for the same appointment..i understand people get busy and a funeral..it was so hard to keep the nerve to go that the last time she called i just quit,,i have been waiting to see the psychiatrist from august ,but that appointment isnt until november 12th..he said he wanted to see me after i seen the psychologist but i didnt expect to have to wait over 2 months..i seen the psychologist about 1 1/2 months ago(i think approx.).it is sooo easy to give up..but every time i do i feel worse,,my heart aches,,my mind turmoils,,i will not miss the psychriatrist..today i will be asking a friend to watch the baby on thursday mornings,,hope she says yes,,and i should reschedule some appointments ..with one councellor ,she asked me to do one thing..that one thing seemed easy when i agreed to try,but i havent been able to,and actually may be a little worse since that day,, and whats worse is i cant even really look at myself and deal with it! so i havent seen her since, but i know i need to,,SO ,reschedule 2 appointments and find a sitter for thursdays,,thats my agenda for the day,lol,if i can do that,i feel like i would start to accomplish something again..its just keeping them!