You spoke about being frightened about someone breaking in and hurting your family. I live alone but that is also one of my big fears. I think about someone breaking in and killing me or raping me. It's very awful. I used to get so terrified that I would want to hide in the wardrobe. Things are a little better now that I take medication. I seem to sleep alot deeper. But sometimes have really weird dreams. I don't like going for walks because I don't feel safe. I'm always afraid that someone will hurt me. I also feel that something bad will happen because I cannot stop worrying about it happening. You know how people say 'what you say is what you get" kind of thing.
Today I felt like everyone was looking at me. It's an awful feeling. I worry that I'm going to go crazy and that things are going to get worse.