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This post made me cry. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I saw the Body Dysmorphic Disorder in your profile. Since I didn't know what it was I looked it up so I understand it a little better. I can relate to so many things you said.

Side not about the facial hair. In woman, this can be due to medical conditions. I would ask your family doctor and or your gynocologist (if you have one). There is a female condition call PCOS that usually causes excessive facial hair. I have that and the facial hair. I hate it and feel I look so ugly because of it. So, I get that completly.

I'm sorry you feel your family doesn't love you. Mine didn't either and I know those feelings are very hard. To think the parents that wanted you doesn't treat you like they care. This is so hard.

The things you say like "No one likes me, no one loves me" and "I wish I would die", These are very strong feelings. I have them too and it can be difficult to change them. I believe if you do find a psychologist, work with them, they can help you to turn these thoughts/saying around. You can feel better and I hope you can find a psycholgoist to work with. I think it will be good for you.

Gook Luck and please post more if you/can. Feel free to PM me also.