I posted this on the anxiety forum. To me its amazing when I went to see the Psychiatrist and explained everything to him and what I was going thru he upped my meds and also told me if I get in crisis mode go to the ED of a local hospital for help. I had my children this weekend it was a lot of fun but deep inside me I was feeling rotten. When my ex. picked up the kids and I was alone I started shaking from being so nervous and felt everything was closing in on me. I called a Mental health line and was told to go to the ED of a local hospital. So far this would seem to make sense however I got there at 7:30 pm and did not see someone from M/H till around midnight. I told this person all that was going on and started crying. She went to check on availabilty of any beds just as I knew this was going to happen their were none anywhere at any of the hospitals when she came back all she could really say was to check into some diifferent therapy such as PTSD and EMDR treatment. She was nice but she said because I was not actively trying or had any immediate intention of doing harm that there was nothing that could be done. I walked out shortly there after. I had the feeling this was going to happen and being as negative as I am I was not surprised. No matter what I do to try and get help it seems that there is a big flag somewhere on me that says do not bother to help me. Before I left I told the M/H nurse it proves my point no one cares and she said lots of people care and of course I said prove me wrong which she could not. I did make another effort today and called my Psychiatrist's assitant nad explained what had happened how I am feeling etc, she hopefully understood and told me she was going to call the hospital and see what she could do. I did get a call back and I am supposed to get back with her this afternoon after my pain mangement appointment and see if she can get me a room. Any bets that this will fail also?