i have realized a long time ago i have a very hard time making a decision..i cannot seem to tell whether one choice is better than the other,,i second guess myself and also others(depending on who they are)....i can come up with many pros and cons ,, each cancelling out the other..when i feel stongly in one decision,its like my courage goes away to believe it,then i end up either letting someone else tell me the answer or i withdraw and make no decisions,,sometimes i change my mind because the pain of the outcome of the decision is too unbearable to go through,,probably missing alot in life because of how i am constantly waiting...i cant find truth or step back to see it..and whos truth would it be,,do we all have our own truths to live by..if one person believes something and another does not see it the same way then who is wrong? nobody i guess,,maybe its just that if i stand up for my beliefs i will be alone..i dont think anyone would ever feel as strongly as i do about certain things,,am i wrong when most of people dont see things the way i do..or hurt as much..maybe people do feel the same about some issues but are stronger people so it doesnt destroy their lives..and this world is so selfish and harsh,,people seem to just accept things the way they are...i wish i lived in a secluded forest where i can just be me,,and the people who shared my space had morals and love and peace...sorry off topic...anyway my mind is always confused and second guessing..i have stood still for over 2 years and i am going to break if i dont move,,been trying for a few months to reach out but so damn hard