I have my final diagnoisis on Wednesday.....

Is it Bipolar or is it not Bipolar??

I am freaking out on the inside, the outside is mellow!!

I have issues with the WHAT IF'S

WHAT IF

I have Bipolar
I don't
It's something more than this

a lot more which I wont write

I have had the issue with what if's for a long time. I can't seem to get my head around it.

My friend was meant to be coming with me- kinda like moral support... but she has cancelled as she has a family thing she has to attend. Which is fair enough but now I am freaking out more.

To add to all of this I have no money and my bank sent me a text saying I am on or over the limit and I need to get money... I get paid this week can they not wait till Friday? I am freaking out.

I have cancelled all my nights out planned for this week and am stressing.

My other friend said this is something I have to do for myself. I have to go to my appointment and I have to tell him EVERYTHING. I am worried about telling him everything. Also she says I need to know what is wrong with me so I can get myself better ie meds, counselling etc.

I am just venting sorry!!