I suggested that you talk to your parents or your therapist before you get too far into your SI urge, like when you start feeling bad or whatever triggers your SI urges. You told me that when you get the urge to SI you really want to so I took this as you saying that talking to anyone about how you are feeling or how you are doing would be an interference in you wanting to SI. Then I said that maybe this interference of talking to someone might decrease your urge to SI. Am I making sense?