I can't stop crying today, I feel so lost and alone. I feel that's its impossible to have hope for the future sometimes. I just don't know what to do with myself, sometimes I feel like a zombie walking around emotionless, not caring, not feeling, just there. Just going through the motions of life day after day, just to start it all over again the next. Why can't I be happy? Am I such a bad person that I don't deserve happiness in life, any sort of happiness. I just don't know about anything anymore, I'm stuck in this limbo.