dear Stillhopeful,, i remember those days, and all the reasons i made up to "explain" them,, then at some point i learned,, my brain is malfunctioning ~! i am not that feeling~ i am not those thoughts~! those are things i HAVE not things i AM~! you are a strong, healthy person, who is crying right now,, just let that be all it is,, and remember to be nice to yourself, every chance you get,, comfort yourself as you would anyone else you found crying... hoping for your change of mood~~~ Gus