I've never believed in divorce, always thought when you got married it was for life. But I just don't know anymore, I'm so unhappy in every situation. I've been married for almost 12 years now but the last 6 years we've both been on the Methadone clinic and I would say, "not truly ourselves". I've just recently come off of the clinic and am trying to stay clean but he's still on it. He was supposed to come off of it when I did but has made no effort so far. It's so hard for me to see him "high" when I want it. I guess I have many of the problems that a lot of women do, if he leaves, he takes the money, the car, I'll have no way to work, no way to support myself. I have no family here, no one to turn to for help. I'm unhappy with myself for living this way. I spend most of my time just walking around emotionless towards him and everyone around me. I don't know what to do or how to handle the situation.