wow this is how i feel. my husband and i have been separated for over 3 months & my mental state went downhill & he got custody of the kids which at first was a relief but its like i miss them so much but i cant mentally deal with them. my own family hates me except for my dad who is now living with me. my hubbys mom died unexpectedly 2 weeks ago & i was there a lot & today they told me they didnt want me there. with the food thing i know exactly how u feel i dont wanna go get anything fix anything i would just rather be hungry. i hate everyone (atleast thats the way i feel at the moment) everything i hate myself im feel so lonely & rejected manipulated i feel like my kids even hate me im not worth anything right now i feel so low its scary just want to say ur not alone & i know the up & down spikes in how u feel can be pure hell