Depression does do everything it can to cut you off from the poeple it thinks can help you the most. Remember that. it is almost like it will try to find the people who are the greatest threats to its taking you and will try to convince you to remove yourself fromtheir company. like Jilliebeanmn says, it lies! Like a jealous, abusive lover. The people you run from now are most likely to be the ones you need the most. Please do not beat up on your self or try to "save these folks from yourself. If your pastor is a friend and a true pastor, he will know what the deal is, dear. Give him a chance to do what God calls him to do! HUGGGGSSSSSSS.