Thanks Pixie,
I don't know what to say - i'm not in touch with my emotions - i'm just in funk. Having to write an exam tomorrow is keeping me somewhat grounded, else I know I'd do something stupid. My bf goes away 2moro morning for 5 days, so after my exam I'm alone. Not sure it is too clever. But i cannot tell my bf that. I've been offered to see a friend 600 km away (I could fly up there) she knows me and my situation; I know i'd be a lot safer there, but my bf would flip!
I just feel I am a drag to everyone. All i do on PC is moan (With the odd decent post I can make to people when i feel stable)I actually don't feel i deserve your support, because i hardly reciprocate. Same with all my friends (Not that there really are any), and i feel i'm letting my parents down too - they don't know how i battle and i prefer to keep it that way, but once i'm gone, i know it'll hurt them to no end