(((((((((((sugahorse))))))))
Those mixed states are the worst, aren't they? I think you're doing all the right things to hold on while it passes. And it will pass! Call your friend if you can't fly up and see her...stay connected online, text your therapist, have a good cry. Take a "blankie" day as soon as you can. Give yourself permission to take a day off, curl up in bed, pull the covers over your head and stay there all day...but ONLY one day. Then you must get up and tackle the world again with new strength.
It doesn't feel that way now, but you've been in a mixed state before and survived it. You can and will survive this one, too. xoxoxox