widgets;I would suggest contacting the pdoc and request an emergency appointment. If you can't get in to see the pdoc soon, get an appointment with your GP. If you feel you're a danger to yourself please go to the ER.

I know it's difficult to reach out for help, but you would be there for your friends if they were going through the same thing. We all need someone to lean on and suffering in silence isn't healthy. I hope you start feeling better soon and please keep us posted.